baby its cold outside.

Christmas was lovely! I got the most gorgeous camera ever, and a lot more..such as clothes, jewelery, the gossip girl season 2 boxset, makesup, bags, shoes, money, music etc. Im a very lucky girl. I spent the day with Kelli. We went to the cinema with warren. We saw Avatar..it was soo good, i cried :p heres some pictures of some of the lovely things i recieved..

fasination

i have a weird love of blood, smoke and fire. people think im a freak...although that may be true. there is just something about them that is so artistic.

For years, I hated myself. i covered the mirrors in my house. I literally couldnt have a mirror in my room. I still cant sit in a restraunt or someplace where I can catch my reflection. I get so paranoid.

I'd rather you hate me for everything i am, than ever love me for something im not.

i wish someone can see past my exterior smile and belive the truth behind the lie "im fine". i need comfort. I need someone. And im affraid i have already pushed him away.

I need a foot massage and a hug.

music exam this morning. didnt go to bad. after it i had a gingerbread latte in starbucks. heaven! then had a look round henry street. bumped into luke, skipping school naughty boy. i enjoyed it. i can home and had some carrot soup. im having a nice day so far. although it would be nicer is i got my kasabian ticket. i was so frustrated, i was planning to go but the tickets were all sold out.

my feet are so sore. my boots are pretty but you cant walk for hours in them. at one point luke carried me. love him. love you x

the crazy cat lady

things might look good on the outside, but inside it aint so perfect.

im good, but there is something inside me, that i cant put my finger on. something hideous. something that is hurting me.

heres some pretty pictures to distract myself. to put a false smile on my face.

saturday.

saturday was fun/sad. im really ganna miss robbie! i dont feel i will be able to let go.

i love you.

i didnt say it enough. i didnt write it enough. i didnt whispour it enough. i didnt trace the words with my fingers on your back enough. but i thought about it, a lot. i thought about it so much. Thats what i would do different, you know.thinggs probally still would have been doomed, but if i could do it all over again, that would be what i do different. i'd tell yoiu everyday. i love you, i love you, i love you, i love you, i love you.
do you ever wonder about that? if i'd do it all over again?

The same, over and over, but this time you would know i love you. You would be certain, because every night it would be the last thing i murmer in your ear.

there arnt many things i can say i would repeat, but your one and one of a few.

all the girls look like they should be in amsterdam doing tricks with mars bars

im going to rock your world nice and gently. like a delishious cake opposed to a bag of drugs.

my friends said i look like daisy lowe. best compliment...ever!

happiness cannot be traveled to, owned, earned, won or consumed. happiness is the spiritual experience of living every minute with love, grace and gratitude.

wakes up to the cold she created.

i was lonely today. i was working on my art portfolio, making my little brother a micheal jackson halloween costume and making him mac&cheese. then i looked out my window and saw my friend walking down the driveway. i smiled and i was no longer lonely.

i wont hold your hand, but i'll take your cans.

funny lunch time, unfinished art,

portfolio brief,

sickness, fake excuses,

pain au chocolat,funny movie

how fickle my heart and how woozy my eyes,
i struggle to find the truth in your lies.

and now my heart stumbles on things i dont know-
my weakness i feel i must finally show.
lend me your hand and we'll conquer them all,
but lend me your heart and i'll just let it fall.
lend me your eyes, i can change what you see.
but your soul you must keep totally free.

awake my soul, awake my soul,
for you were made to meet your maker.

you are a masochist for liking me.

i wanted that weekend to last forever.

last saturday was absolutly brillient. first of all grainne and i met justin lee collins in easons. he is the nicest person i have ever met. and may i add he gives the best hugs in the entire world. he said he loved me. i was so chuffed! later that day i got invited to my friends, friend birthday. such an amzing party. well what i remembered was great. sunday morning massive headache. but it was well worth it. soo heres some pictures of last saturday.
till next time bloggers.
michelle x